I am Cee Jay Wood, a writer and a businesswoman. Even though I have been married a time or two, had 4 beautiful children, and spent over 30 years grinding and growing in Corporate America, I am also a woman who struggled with insecurity and low self-esteem for decades. From the outside, everything looked fine, but on the inside I was dying. I felt if I made everyone around me happy, then I would be happy. I was too timid to speak up for myself, and so afraid of change that I found myself settling for a lot of unnecessary things. In return, instead of laughter, I shed a lot of tears, and instead for feeling joy, I was living with hurt and regret.
My change came when I finally asked myself a simple yet difficult question - "why?". I'd never questioned myself in the past, I just rode off emotions, and believed as long as others approved then it must be okay. Failing to question people’s motives, as well as my own reasoning for doing what I was doing kept me in the dark and very unfulfilled. After answering the question "why?", I realized I needed to finally become a priority for me.
I then took the time to learn how to love me for me. I thought I loved me all along, but after analyzing my answers to my question "why", I realized that day that I did not. Answering that question brought out all sorts of feelings, emotions, and revelations I never had before. I realized I was like a dog chasing my own tail, just going in circles yet never able to grab hold of what I was reaching for. In the past, I continuously fell into the same hole over and over again, never stopping to think that maybe I needed to change directions. I finally realized that I was giving all my love and attention to people who barely gave me ‘like’ in return.
Do you know what it feels like to wake up one day and realize you have been fantasizing your life away? And the very life you fantasized about you could have been living it all that time? Now I am finally living my dreams! I'm happily married, traveling, building my empire, and experiencing the good things in life that years ago I thought weren't possible for me.
My mission now is to connect with people who are where I've been and let them know that there is a better way and it all starts with loving you. Whether you are just waking up and beginning to smell the coffee, or if you’re not sure if you’re still daydreaming, as long as you have breath in your lungs, it's never too late to take over the driver seat of your life and start living your best days. I know from experience that change and the unknown can make you a little uneasy, but with alternatives like hurt, regret and pain, change is necessary for a truly fulfilling life.
I created this site with hopes of it becoming a beacon of light for change to others who are in situations similar to what I was in, as well as a platform for inspiration, courage, and encouragement to everyone who visits. We will talk about how to overcome, excel, and triumph while making the rest of our lives the best of our lives.
Let’s reach out to the stars as if we can touch them.
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